Have you ever had that moment where you just don’t feel like talking? Others might relate to the sense of feeling lost in a big room of people. For me, these are regular occurrences.
I’m usually one of the quieter ones of the group and more than likely stick with the people I know. I hate being the centre of attention and I’ve never been the most confident person. I’m not impulsive, I plan everything. I have a list for everything. I’ve never been one to raise my hand to answer a question in a lesson. I worry, I often overthink, and I’m a massive perfectionist.
What is upsetting to any introvert, though, is the common misconception that introverts are boring. Boring, shy, no personality. This is hardly the case. If you know me, you know I can be opinionated and don’t think twice about standing my ground if I need to. But just because I’m not the loudmouth, drama craving idiot, doesn’t mean I don’t have a personality of my own. Yes, I may be quieter than others, but I’m always thinking, always got things going on in my head, taking in surroundings, people and conversations.
My need to plan is just organisation, this can never be bad. After all, failing to prepare is preparing to fail. My perfectionism is just attention to details that others simply don’t appreciate. I don’t rely on large groups, I am content with my own company. It gives me the opportunity to read, write or just watch what I want to watch on TV, not what someone else does.
Don’t get me wrong, I understand the importance of social interaction and I have plenty of close friends. But I just don’t crave that over the top, fake social persona. I know myself, I’ve learnt my strengths and I’ve learnt my weaknesses. Being an introvert is not a weakness. Being an introvert means my life is free from drama. It means I am creative and thoughtful, and a good listener and friend to those around me. It means I am passionate, a hard worker and have long term goals that I will achieve.
Moral of the story… I’ll no longer apologise for who I am.
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